Guess Who?

i saw mason eating at Swans the other day... i was on the bus... and he saw me, but i don't think he recignized me... oh well... time to grow up from the past...

if i don't wanna fuck up andy's and bobby's relationship... do i have to cut myself out of the picture?

i haven't had a great week. and if i have learned anything, its:
when things look there worst, you just have to say, well alright. cause it's just going to get a hell of a lot worse.

so i'm just waiting for things to get bad. my boyfriends bestfriend hates me, cause i said, "hi." and like blocked me on msn.



also, i went to a rave on saturday, and ran into taysha, from esq, you know, the bitch with black hair? anyways, i can't get her out of my head... she slips into my dreams a lot. tomenting me in everyway possible, turning my simple nightmares into, night terrors.

my father accompanies her throughout, as she does as she pleases... it makes me wonder if she has a voodoo doll of me... i hate her, but i had ONE good comeback line.



She said: "-STUPID DYKE!!!"

I said: "...at leased I'M out of the closet."



that made my night.



ZBut i'm not quite sure what i should do about the bobby thing. because he is my boyfriends bestfriend. and luminara is this weekend, and we're all going together, and doing mush... but i don't know if i want to do mush around someone whome i am mad at.

hmmmm...

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

lookit what i got for my birthday!!!




its on my back... and i LOVE IT

Tis me birthday

birthday in 2 days...

so check this out... i got this email, and this is what it said, and I QUOTE:


you made me hard and i wanna fuck ur pussy time after time.. when i insert my hard dick in your small pussy, you are so screaming and crying. couse my hard dick have got pain of your little pussy . im going fuck ur little secret and kissing, bite your nippels.i m put to put my hard dick in your your pussy.my finger is playing your ass. im squeezing your ass and insert your asshole .you are so hot and your face is making red .couse you have good taste and pain .my hard dick is take off ur pussy and i turned your back. im insert your asshole and you are crying again. your asshole is bleeding but im insert too difficult. your asshole is squeezing my hard dick. i cant be fast . when i make to fuck your asshole you are faint. im take of my hard dick and waiting you.
when you open your eyes , im sitting on your breasts. my hard dick is touching your nippels and between your boobs. later im insert my hard dick in your mouth and fucking your mouth so faster. my dick is going your throat . you arenbt take in breath. do you want to take my all dick and my balls. i m fastly fucking your mouth and i wanna be orgazm. some times you are bite my cock and im screaming too. when i been orgazm , you are drink my spermand im take off your mouth and my sperm taking on your face...


i could only laugh... anyone else have any oppinions?

i kinda want to go to the beach today... anyone want to go with me next time?

i am back from alaska, and i had such a good time. it wa soo hot, and i got so drunk the whole time...
i made frends witht these 3 siblings, age from 24 to 28.
they drank me up every night.
i drank 6 26's in 6 days. i was so drunk. and my mom was so pissed, it was funny.




we lost one of the 26s one night when we were too drunk.


not to mension that we kept buying drinks

i think i'm going through early menopause. but i'm only 17... but i have soooo many symptoms...

hmmm, perhaps i should bring it up again with my doctor.

This is the risk of accidental pregnancy in one year.

No birth control - 85%
withdrawing penic before ejaculation - 4% - 24%
spermicide alone - 3% - 30%
contraceptive sponge - 8% - 24%
male condom - 2% - 16%
female condom - not yet known
birth control pill - 0.1% - 6%
intrauterine device - 1% - 4%
cervical cap or diaphrahm with spermicide - 6% - 18%
hormone injection(Depo-Provera) - 0.3% - 0.4%
Abstinence - 0% (DUH!)

Happy Easter.

i saw a boy hit his dog today. it killed me inside. the kid was really short, and probably like 10. he and his sister were biking down the road, and the boy went one way around the telephone pole, and the dog went the other. the boy went flying. after quite a few words that i didn't know that he knew, he got up and proceeded to hit his dog. a car pulled up. a woman was telling this little boy that it was wrong to hit a dog, and the boy's reply was that it was his dog, so he could do whatever he wanted to it. and then he told her to fuck off. he and his sister continued down the road. i believe that he hit his dog again, and another car pulled over. but that car was facing the wrong direction to chase him down the road. it waited for a long time. and boy and his sister didn't come back.
i was very disturbed.
i can't have a dog, and this kid thinks that he can abuse his! thats fucked up.

think about what kind of adult this kid is going to become. He'll probably beat his wife and his kids. i couldn't even believe this

i thought this was creepily right...

Your Personality Is

Idealist (NF) You are a passionate, caring, and unique person. You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals. You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily. Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings. You seek out other empathetic people to befriend. Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships. In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily. At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career. With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone. As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style. On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours.

Do you ever wonder if everything that you are living, everything you think is real, is completely wrong? What if everyone is living to you? i don't know what to think anymore. My friends don't seem to be my friends anymore. maybe everything is a lie, and my world will be shattered...

someone whome i loved very dearly, left my life, no warning because of stupid mistakes! i miss her with all my heart, but i know that she doesn't understand whats going on and will keep herself in this horrible possition. She had a choice of two people. One, an addicted crack head with no future and the other a great guy, nice, friendly, and had no addictions. Both of these boys are drug dealers. She slept with both. the crack-head became obsessed, and made her call the other guy to tell him that she was, "in love" with the cracked out guy. She did and lost communication with the good guy. The good guy, although he is a drug dealer, has a job. he has a routine.

i wish she could see how she's ruining her life. i love her and there is nothing i can do. i told her she was making a mistake, but she had to see for herself, and now she's in way to deep to get out. don't fear crack-heads, unless they're coming at you with a knife. I bet he abuses her.

she wants freedom, but i don't think she realizes she's not going to get it with him. he will go no where. just you wait. AND she's scared of him. i told her to stand up to him but she wouldn't. he called me all like "where the fuck is she" and i told him i had no idea, and then he sent people after me.

i just want my friend back.

1. name:
2. birthday:
3. place of residence:
4. what makes you happy:
5. what are you listening to now/have listened to last:
6. do you read my lj:
7. if you do, what is particularly good/bad about it:
8. an interesting fact about you:
9. are you in love/have a crush at the moment:
10. favourite place to be:
11. favourite lyric:
12. best time of the year:
13. weirdest food you like:
14. do farts make you laugh:

RECOMMEND
1. a film:
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3. a band, a song and an album:

PLUS
1. one thing you like about me:
2. two things you like about yourself:
3. put this in your lj so i can tell you what i think of you.

so now andy and i have been living together for a month now and things are going great. i love him. he bought a new bong yesterday though and it made me very angry that he could not talk to me about it. oh well, it's a dope bong... need to go smoke outta it